Tonight was one of those nights no one tells you about before you have kids ... today I kept both of you home since I only have a few more days until I go back to work and we took lunch to dad at school. While we were there Julie got to play on the smart board in his room and had a blast drawing all over it. When we got home we had a great time making a birthday card for Marcie because her birthday is tomorrow. After dinner dad left to go out with uncle Nate and all hell broke loose.
Lily is having a really gassy night which means she is inconsolable and needs to be held and bounced all the time. Before dad left we'd gotten the craft supplies back out and were making some Thank You cards for all of the Easter presents you guys had gotten. Julie and I were in the midst of glue, glitter and everything else when Lily had started crying again and things got a little chaotic. I was trying to calm Lily down when Julie wanted to sprinkle more glitter (which requires an adult) and as I tried to explain that it would be a few minutes she got really frustrated. Julie then asked if she could take a bath and I explained that we wouldn't be doing that tonight because we had so much else going on which resulted in a breakdown. So we now had Lily and Julie crying which was a little overwhelming for me ... so I figured if you can't beat them, join them! Julie was really surprised to see me crying and asked why I was crying so I explained that I was overwhelmed and wished dad was here to help. She then started to cry that she just wanted dad to be home which actually made me smile and helped both of us stop crying. After all 3 of us had a good cry things calmed down a little bit and we had a little dance party in the living room which made Julie happy and allowed me to bounce Lily some more. Following our dance party it was off to Julie's bed time routine which went pretty well and I'm now just trying to keep Lily pacified.
I'll admit, I almost didn't write this because I don't like to remember these nights when it just seems so hard and I also feel like I am whining and complaining but I decided to write because I think it is important for me to remember these nights and know that even though there are moments where it seems just too overwhelming they pass. I also know that every other mom out there has had these moments and we wouldn't be human without them. I'm sure that as you guys grow up there will be other nights where all three of us cry and dad will probably wish that he wasn't here!
2 comments:
Jen, I am so sorry you had one of those moments. I had a moment like that with Rohan and it was just Rohan. But I felt the same way, all you can do is cry. I think it's great that you wrote about it, because I thought I was crazy at the time and the only one who had a moment like that. No one talks about it. But it's so good to talk about it and know that it is normal and it will pass. I remember one of the L&D nurses telling me that about the contractions, "just remember it will always pass", and it never seemed like it was going to pass! hahah! Hugs to you Jen! You are a great mom and I would be just as overwhelmed!
Oh, Jen, you poor thing. Yes, it happens to everyone. I remember sitting in the kids' bathroom just bawling and bawling...that was right after Mom left after Beth was born. I had no idea how I was going to handle two kids at the same time. Feel free to call next time you're in the middle of it. It's always helpful to know you're not alone.
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